Is it hard to be alone or not?

We are not from in rich family even in the really poor; my mum is a teacher in public primary school. We are not like a really poor but I can say one of the poor people compare the other. I am proud of my Mum because she is working really hard for her family since my Dad died. Since my Dad died I can see the sadness on my Mum’s face. I learnt from my parent that it’s better for the both of parents to have a good job. The man doesn’t have to depend on the women’s income and the woman doesn’t have to depend on the man’s income but they have to help each other when they face a difficulty or the hard time.
Sometimes I am asking my self: when can help my Mum out of this poorness and this trouble? I wish I can pay my Mum’s ticket to travel around of Madagascar by Plan. I am proud of myself too because I don’t depend on my Mum much more that before right now. She didn’t pay much on me anymore even my trip or my pocket money but she still helping me when I am stuck.

How do I get money then?

I become a translator for any tourist, NGO, Student and some journalist foreigner and I become a photograph with my small digital Camera which was my Christmas gift from my host family in Norway.
About the photograph’s job is a really funny story.
I learnt a bite how to take picture when I was at Hald, this can help me a bite on how to take a picture. And also I have my old laptop which I got from Norway also, who I can use to edit the picture that I took. Many of my friend or my Mum’s friend asks me if I am able to take a picture for them. They charge me $ 0.8 to $ 5 per photo, it depend on the size of the photo. I took more than 20 photos per week from September 2008 to June 2009. Why did I stop in June? Because the scream of my camera was broke so my client did want to ask me to take a photo of then. Even thou I lost that job, I still work on the translation thing. Andrew Lees Trust offers me a job of Book translation from English to Antanosy ( my own dialect in my home town) I participate a bite but I was really busy school project so I didn’t do it anymore.

I can see how hard is life and how hard is to be an only child, you don’t have any support from anyone else, you work for your on like my Mum did even she has her sister around. I can see through her face that is suffering much of finding out about what will happen tomorrow, where I can find money to buy my needs. All of those questions are in my mind right since I live alone. Even its hard, suffering and it might makes me crazy, I am always say that today is a bad day but tomorrow will be a prefect day. I never give up. I am trying to be up and having the better day tomorrow. In my mind says that God never let you down, I might be suffering in this earth, and somewhere which I couldn’t see, will be the paradise where I will be happy forever and ever. Or it’s not the time yet.

God helps me out of the trouble so he show me the way to the future. Soon I will graduate from my University; I hope my real life will start after that.

I wish that I have 6 brothers and 7 sisters, so my Mum and I never be alone.